The Long Walk
The dark night sky my only friend
As a cool autumn breeze whips my face
I watch the sidewalk pass under me
Am I moving or is it?
With nothing but my CD player
I walk alone tonight
Another song comes on
Throwing me deeper in
Forcing me down to think
About these thoughts I'd rather forget
I look up towards the sky
The stars like diamonds sparkle bright
I think of thoughts and times gone past
When youth was fully upon me
The freedom and carelessness
The utter insanity of being a child
Stripped away from me
Like a person stripped of life
A car comes over the hill now
It's headlights blinding me
The light reflects in the tears
Streaming down my face
It forces me to see the light
That I haven't seen in so long
The driver's stare is like a razor
Cutting right through me
Going straight to my soul
He looks at me like I am dead
Who is he to judge?
The dead don't cry or feel like me
So I continue on
The occasional person pass
Seeing nothing but this kid
A person who grew up to fast
Had so much taken away
And lost so much as well
This lonely being wandering through
The dark depressing night
Looking for my home
My prison for tonight
The smell of burning leaves now fills the air
A thick smell, almost choking
It finds its way to my nostrils
Fighting its way down
Like the way I have to fight
Every single day
To make it through alive
To survive one more time
Visions of memories
Appear before me
Haunting me like ghosts
Things I've tried to forget
And suppress down inside
Bringing with them new waves
Of emotion and confusion
Whys?, who's?, what's?, and where's?
These questions plague me now
Trying to find answers
In a place that has none
I round the final corner
My house is now in sight
I see the warm glow
Of the light by my door
I stand there for a minute
Thinking about my walk
I wipe away the tears slowly
And look down at my sleeve
I'm savoring the moment
A smile comes across me
I look up at the moon
Glowing overhead
The man stares back at me
As he has all night
"Goodnight my old friend"
"Thank you for lighting the way"
And with that I open the door
I embrace the heat as it escapes
I am home once again
But with new demons arose
It will never be the same
2004
